8/13/09

Things are going better. Don seems to be really trying to make things work between and us and I no longer feel like my world is falling apart. Don realizes I no trust him and I do spend way too much time tracking everything he does but you know its just going to be that way for awhile. To be honest though, this may have been just the thing for us to get back to working on our marriage. I can honestly say neither of us had worked on the marriage much in the past six months. Life got crazy and the first thing that went was our marriage.

Don lost his job the last day of last year. It took him almost 6 months to find another job. This has been noted as a major issue in some marriages. We have a set of twins which again has been proven to cause martial stress. Neither of us were really investing too much energy into the emotional aspect of marriage. And to be honest he found the emotional support he wanted with his "online" friend. Granted I am not to blame and I will not take the blame for what happened but if I had noticed his emotionally tuning out of our marriage before his trip what happened may not have happened.

Right now we are working on rebuilding trust and working on fulfilling each others emotional needs. So far I feel we both are giving 100% towards this goal. From what I have read and from others I have talked to it may take years to rebuild trust and I really believe this. The other day he was late coming home from work and the first thing that went through my head was he was somewhere talking to her on the phone. Well I headed out to try to find him and it turned out he had to stay late at work.